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I'm glad, too.

[Rei tilts his head up, looks at Rin, reaches and tangles his own hand in Rin's hair.]

We seem to have a habit of telling each other how we feel without really planning for it. And usually as dramatically as possible.

[It's a light-hearted mention. It's not that Rei just loves bringing up a time they were at each other's throats, but it will always be a part of them, and the event that set them on the path they're on now. And even if they had been only one wrong word away from blows, Rei would never go back and change a thing.]

I think we just needed this moment. Like I said before, we're always rushing, always with other people... So I'm really glad that we're doing this.

[And now he's more determined than ever to do this more often. Before Rin leaves and they're forced to look at where the relationship is going.]

And I'm really glad that you told me.

[He tilts his head further up, to kiss Rin's chin. He wishes he could convey to Rin at words that he doesn't have to worry about being "good" at feelings, that Rei will always accept him and he doesn't have to be nervous, but just saying that would probably have the opposite effect. So he kisses Rin gently, fingers playing with his hair, and hopes that he gets it from that.]

[Rin leans into the touch and the kiss, humming in blissful contentment. Perhaps there's something to be said about the fact that Rei, who has always been far more straight up with words from the very beginning, has chosen to relay the message through physical affection-- Rin's area of expertise. Perhaps this is just fine.

And that means he should keep trying to improve on the communication front. Because Rin Matsuoka doesn't settle for just fine, he must strive for excellence.]

Come to think of it, it wasn't as dramatic as it could have been. This talk, I mean. [He feels the need to clear that up, although it should be obvious nothing they ever do would be as dramatic as their first real meeting. And he wouldn't change a single second of that, either.]

At least this time around, you did the polite thing and invited me over, instead of showing up unannounced and cornering me. Now that would have made for a terribly aggressive confession.

[He chuckles at the thought and makes a sudden move forward as though launching an attack, teeth clamping down with a threatening sound just an inch or so away from Rei's nose, equal parts rowdy and playful. It's good that they can talk like this, open and spontaneous and free, no hard feelings over a time when resentment was all they had for a bond.]

[Physical affection for Rei is a learned skill, and a conscious act. He's watched Rin, he's come to know how to read signals, when to try words and when actions are clearer. Especially in quiet moments like this, when he can think about what he wants to say, and how to say it best, he can do it well enough.

He knows there will be times he won't have time to think, and he'll miss the cues, and he won't always give Rin exactly what he needs, but that's just something they'll have to keep working through.

He raises an eyebrow at the "attack," though it's just as teasing. Resting his palms on the couch on either side of Rin, he pushes himself up onto his arms over him, shifting his weight to his knees on the couch so he's not putting all his weight into Rin's stomach.]

So you don't like being cornered?

[It's said completely innocently, even as he crouches over Rin. Someone's been taking lessons from Nagisa.]

There go my plans for next Tuesday.

[He's glad he's already taken off his glasses, because if they had fallen off his nose during this it would have ruined the effect.]

[Oho. What an interesting turn of events.

This time, it's Rin's turn to arch an eyebrow, less teasing and more suggestive. It's not often that Rei takes the initiative when it comes to physical affection, and it usually takes Rin more than a fake bite to get him in this sort of mood. Maybe the talk of heartfelt feelings got him randy? It's a weird turn-on to have, but hey, Rei is weird, so it might make sense.

Either way, this weekend over has already far exceeded his expectations.]

I do think all I said is that it would make for an aggressive confession. [He aims for an equally innocent tone, but alas, he's not as well trained in Nagisa arts. Instead, he abandons all pretense of nonchalance and lifts one knee, leaves it strategically positioned between Rei's legs. Should he get any closer, he'll wind up with some added friction in his pants, willingly or not.

Which clearly means Rin should try and lure him in.]

But suddenly, I'm starting to think it might be a very attractive idea. [His voice drops to a whisper and he leans in closer, dragging his teeth across Rei's lips, slow and taunting. Eyes locked on his.]

Very, very attractive.

[Rei keeps his eyes locked back for a moment, before they flutter closed at the feel of Rin's teeth and the sound of his voice. His breath hitches when he leans into Rin's knee.

His first thought is that maybe they shouldn't do this on the couch. His second thought is...]

Rin.

[He opens his eyes again, looks right in Rin's.]

We just said "I love you" for the first time, and I think... I think that we should make this something special.

[He lifts himself up again, just a bit, off Rin's knee. He misses the friction immediately, but ignores it.]

So what do you want to do?

[He'll go right back to what he was doing if that's what Rin wants. But Rei just knows he wants to remember this night as something beautiful from start to finish.]

[Rin chuckles to himself, but otherwise keeps quiet about that. He does have to wonder, though, if this is really only his influence or whether Rei had a dormant romantic side within all along.]

I've told you before, I don't care what we do, or how we do it. [To be quite frank, Rin does think a little lovemaking (rowdy though it may be) would be the perfect follow-up to the words and feelings they exchanged earlier; if it's right away on the couch or in the bedroom later that night, it really doesn't matter.

Still, he, too, wants to make sure Rei is entirely pleased with whatever turnout they go for, so he lets his leg drop again, but refuses to pull his face away. Instead, he brings a hand to cup Rei's cheek, lets his thumb stroke circles on his skin, and he finds it extremely hard to resist the urge to close that gap. So he doesn't.]

None of that matters, Rei. [A whisper once they part, though he still peppers kisses all over Rei's lips for the half minute it takes him to add:] I just want to be with you.

[Rei leans into the kisses, humming agreeably. He would still argue that he's not a romantic, but there is a beauty in loving someone, in being happy with them and making them happy, and he would be a poor beauty enthusiast if he didn't try to make this love as bright as possible.

So to that end, he sits up, then finds Rin's hands, taking them and lacing their fingers together.]

Come with me.

[He tugs on Rin's hands, urging him off the couch.]

Unless you're still interested in this movie.

[He looks over, and it looks like the actors are arguing about a girl or something. He has no idea why.]

Like you even remember what the movie is called, for starters.

[A clear indication that neither had ever really been all that invested in the movie. All right, so maybe Rin had been a bit interested in knowing about how this pair of weasels just crashed into a stranger's wedding in order to prevent unwelcome guests in his hypothetical future nuptials with a hypothetical fiance that could be hypothetically a bit of an oblivious nerd, but he could always look it up later. Right now, he's got other priorities.

Carefully maneuvering so as to not step on the popcorn bowl or knocking it over (and sparing an idle thought to whether Rei would just leave their snacks behind, unattended) Rin hoists himself up, giving his boyfriend a curious look.]

So, where are you taking me?

[He has one or two ideas, but he can still play coy.]

The movie is called- ...something about weddings.

[Partly to avoid Rin's look after that sad attempt, and partly to be responsible, he lets go with one hand to remove the popcorn from the floor and set it on the table. It should really go in the trash, but it will keep for a little while. It would break his fluid maneuver from couch to bed if he goes to put it away, so sacrifices must be made. He does push the power button on the remote to turn off the movie and reach past Rin for his glasses, putting them back on his nose, before taking Rin's hand again.]

Be patient and you'll see.

[It's not a surprise, since there are only four places Rei can take Rin from here and they're definitely not going into the kitchen or his parents' room. As for the bathroom, shower sex can be fun, but it's usually too quick. Even if they tried to make it last, Rei doesn't want to get pruny while he's trying to feel sexy. Talk about things that are not beautiful.

So it's predictable when he pulls Rin into his bedroom, but Rei can't be romantic and spontaneous all the time (or even most of the time). It's not the locale that matters today, anyway.

Once they get there, he takes a moment to wrap his arms around Rin and kiss him, gentle but still with heat and a hint of need. He can't get close enough to Rin, but he tries.]

[Maybe it's predictable, and in the back of his mind, Rin has to withhold a comment along the lines of "so much for having the entire apartment to ourselves" - like Rei had kindly pointed out when he first arrived - but he was serious about not minding technicalities, as long as the two are together. And here they are.

He's no stranger to the urge to break the laws of physics and hold Rei so close until they are one and the same, to forsake air and breathe only his scent, but even in his highest dreams, he knows that just can't be. So he settles for kissing him, lets his hands sneak underneath fabric and grip Rei's sides, roam across shoulder blades and toned muscle. He wants to read him through touch, to pick on every unspoken need, grant every hidden wish. Wants to love him like his words couldn't describe.

Rin kisses him for a time, working up a slow heat, peppered with affectionate nips and nibbles on his lips. When he stops, it's only so he can remove his glasses, deliberate and meticulous, as opposed to his usual frenzy from previous times. They're not in a hurry.]

Why did you have to put these back on? [Warm breath brushing against Rei's neck, he slides the pair of red frames inside his boyfriend's breast pocket-- not that he should be keeping that shirt on for long, but they'll figure it out as they go.] You didn't bring me here for studying, did you...?

[Nothing more than a rhetorical question, of course.]

I don't like walking around without them.

[There's another reason, that once he gets so far from Rin he can't see him clearly anymore, he gets blurred around the edges and the features of his face, and Rei hates that. He never wants Rin to be blurred, he only wants to see him in his full beauty. Walking to his room, he might have been out of focus, and Rei can't have that.

But now, with them so close, every detail of Rin is perfectly clear, so Rei doesn't mind when Rin gently removes his glasses. He doesn't care about the damn things at all right now, he only cares about every sensation from Rin's hands. He returns the favor by slipping his own hands up under Rin's tank top, his hands slowly traveling like he's trying to get intimately acquainted with each and every muscle.

He decides to try something. He wants to see the reaction if he...]

I love you.

[It's barely more than a whisper, proclaimed against Rin's lips.]

[There are no waterworks this time, but still a glimmer in Rin's eyes, a smile, and he meets the kiss in full, squeezing Rei to him in a death grip, equal parts enthusiastic and possessive, arms snaked around his shoulders. There's so much he wants to say, wants to whisk him away, take him someplace where they never have to part, where they can simply belong together. A dream world of sorts.

But he can leave that utopia aside, focus on the here and now. Reality is not bad at all.]

God, I love you... [A ragged murmur from Rin's lips to his, breath stolen away by kisses and daydreaming and Rei. There's a minute when he really wants to scream, repeat those words loud and clear enough for the entire vicinity to hear, and a giggle bubbles up in his chest at his own silly ideas. That just wouldn't do.

Instead, he lets his kisses cover a slow, moist path from Rei's jaws to his ears, teeth indulging in soft skin, marking without scarring. Making Rei his in secret.]

Let me show you. [Another whisper, meant only for Rei's ear, already feeling hearts racing together. One hand is in Rei's hair, then his cheek, keeping him grounded to the moment, before the raw force of his feelings could drown out unpracticed words. Before he lost himself in deep lavender, where no line could reach.]

I'll show you love like you've never felt before.

[Rei's breath is slow, stuttered, against Rin as he goes, his hands shivering in their slow study of Rin's chest. He starts to slide Rin's shirt up, not fast, but without hesitation. His body is moving as though on automatic, all his concentration focused on feeling Rin.

He's never really liked letting himself go completely in the past, moving on instinct, not thinking. It made him feel like he'd lost control. So he forced himself to think, and ended up over-thinking, making mistakes, hesitating, psyching himself out.

Looking at Rin now, he thinks he can do it this time. Not just have sex but be with Rin. He wants that. He's not scared, or nervous; he feels exhilarated.

He only pulls away from Rin long enough to take his shirt off. He keeps his eyes locked on him the whole time.

Then he's back immediately, mirroring Rin's earlier position, his mouth near Rin's ear.]

I want to see it. Please. I want to see every sight you have to give.

[He peppers kisses along Rin's jawline.]

Every piece of you is beautiful. [A chuckle, soft.] Ah, I'm so...

[A million words could go there. He doesn't pick any of them, opting to kiss Rin's lips instead.]

[It's an excellent alternative, and Rin welcomes the kiss, but only for a second or two. When he pulls away, it's an equally brief maneuver, and only so he can finish Rei's previous train of thought with a touch of his own:]

So gorgeous...

[An honest, spur of the moment compliment, one that doubles as a quick spice to their tryst. He knows his boyfriend and what gets him going.

Words out of the way, he immediately resumes their kissing, just a little more desperate, a little more resolute than before. In the movies, this would be the perfect moment to sweep up his lover in his arms and gently deposit him in bed, following after in a fluid, smooth move; alas, Rei is no slender-bodied maiden, and as much as Rin could possibly lift him, he doesn't want to risk any accidents and completely ruin the mood-- that has happened more often than he'd like, in the past.]

C'mere... [It doesn't have the same effect, but he keeps Rei in a loose embrace as he tugs him to bed; he moves on instinct, knowing the way by heart, lips and hands still on Rei, distracting and full of promises, fingers getting busy with the buttons on his shirt. He can't wait to feel him, all of him, warm goosebumps under his touch.]

[His spice works, and Rei moans into his mouth, pressing harder against his lips. Maybe it's vain of him, that Rin calling him such things gets him hard, but he's not going to complain if Rin's willing to give it to him. He can be a little vain.

He lets Rin pull him onto the bed, trying not to lose any contact. He kisses and touches while Rin works with his shirt, not being shy about where his hands go. But he doesn't want this to go too quickly, either, so he stays gentle, almost methodically exploring Rin's body under his fingers.]

Rin...

[He lets the name roll off his tongue, sweet as honey. He almost forgets what he was going to say after. It takes him a moment to find his train of thought in the pleasing haze taking over his mind.]

I want to go slow. No rushing.

[That's the theme of the night, it seems.]

[Rin stops his kissing frenzy long enough to free up his lips for a smile, as fond as it is mischievous.]

You've read my mind.

[And then his lips are on Rei's again, soft, affectionate, leaving little nips here and there for added heat. He's wanted to do this for a long time now, wanted to shower Rei with slow, loving care that can't be properly offered in a rush. Even if it's only for one night, he wants to make Rei fully appreciated, like he's the only person of importance in Rin's ever expanding world.

With the last button finally undone, Rin slips Rei's shirt down his arms, slow and deliberate, bidding his time and memorizing every toned curve along the way. Next, his hands are on Rei's chest, frisky, but with a purpose: to distract him just that little bit further as Rin nudges him onto bed, just the very edge, pressing him down on the mattress and following after him, never once breaking skin contact.]

I'll make you happy, Rei... [His whisper comes in a low, warm breath, one leg maneuvering around his boyfriend's so he's sitting astride him. Comfortable, hands on Rei's face, and maybe a slight roll of his hips, the ideal blend of romance and passion; Rin's personal favorite.]

And I don't mean it just today.

[He would do it for as long as Rei let him.]

["I'll make you happy, too."

It was the last coherent thing he'd managed to say, other than a few smatterings of "I love you." The only other things making it past his lips were moans and tangled gasps of Rin's name, and he knows he'd been loud a time or two, because he already has a problem staying quiet when he has to, and for once he didn't have to at all. He strangely doesn't feel embarrassed. Why shouldn't Rin know how much he was enjoying it?

He's still got his arms wrapped around Rin, and he's sweaty and sticky and for once he doesn't really care about that, doesn't feel like sneaking off to take a shower, doesn't feel like trying to shake off the roar of emotions still rushing inside of him. He holds tight to Rin, a wide and loving smile on his face, a little sleepy, enjoying the moment.

He laughs lightly, with happiness.]

I'm so glad that neither of us have to leave now. I don't think I could let you go.

[Rei's laugh is met with a true equal, and Rin cards his fingers through his boyfriend's messy, messy bed hair, brushes a few droplets of sweat off his forehead. The remaining hints of their shared passion.]

Then don't let me go.

[Said in all simplicity, raspy breath against Rei's lips, all intimate affections. It's pointless to try and resist the overwhelming need to feel him again, so he surrenders to yet another kiss, a chorus repeated throughout their entire dance and song. One that he hopes they get to encore for a long time to come.]

I mean, I guess we'll have to get up and get started on dinner and stuff, but until then... [He finishes his train of thought by example rather than rhetoric, muscular arms pressing Rei up closer to him. Realistically, they still needed to clean themselves up, then the living room and then do some cooking, but that's all for later. His immediate concern is more along the lines of how much longer his refractory period would last, to be perfectly frank.]

I really like it here, you know? [It's a silly confession, and he nuzzles Rei's neck as an excuse to hide his own face, just a tiny bit self-conscious.] Your room. The way everything smells like you...

[~~They're both around eighteen so they only have fifteen minutes to wait.~~

Rei doesn't want to think realistically, because then he'll have to go back to being the rational, prim and proper worrywart that he doesn't want to be right this second. Normal Rei can wait a little bit longer. Lovestruck Rei is still having his fun.

So he disregards anything said about dinner and focuses on the next part. As far as he's concerned right now, they have forever, and will never hunger.]

Really? [He smiles.] I can't really say the same of your room, but I believe that's because it's half Sousuke-san's.

[Not to mention inhabited by other boys in the past, who Rei does not care to imagine because the only person he cares about for the immediate future doesn't need to be imagined. He tilts his head so he can kiss Rin's shoulder, the most convenient part of him while his face is nuzzled in Rei's neck.]

It holds a lot of good memories, though...

[He begins methodically placing kisses along Rin's shoulder and at the base of his neck, as though trying to tally them all.]

[Rin laughs into his neck, just the slightest bit ticklish; it's mostly the loose sort of joy that just comes naturally to anyone in such a state of pure bliss, happy and carefree, and so terribly in love.]

Yeah, well, mine is a dorm room. [He pulls away a bit, nuzzling replaced by fingers gently brushing Rei's cheek, tracing the contours of his beautiful, beautiful features. Rin could stare at him forever, made all the more gorgeous in the afterglow.] It wasn't even mine last year, and it's all standard furniture and stuff, anyway. Even if I didn't share it with roommates, it wouldn't be all that personal.

[He shifts in bed a little so his face is more comfortably pressed up against his half of the pillow, close enough for a whiff of Rei's scent, intoxicating and ever present in every inch of fabric. Would it be too weird if he stole some of these covers and pillows and snuck them inside his dorm? It probably would.]

Come to think of it, I don't really have anywhere of my own that's quite like this. Even my own room back home hasn't been used much since I first left to Australia. [And he's going to yet another place in Australia this time around, but he's not going to mention that part.] So I guess this is another reason why I like it here so much. It's all undoubtedly you.

[Some day in the future, he hopes to have a place that he can truly call his own. Somewhere that smells like the both of them.]

[Rei closes his eyes to the feel of Rin's fingers, enjoying the attention.]

It fits you, though. I mean... with your dreams and your passion, how could you stay in one place forever?

[One thing he learned from the others' stories of Rin, even before he knew Rin himself, is that he's sort of transient. Not in his affections, of course, but in his location. He was always moving, from Sano to Iwatobi to Australia and back. Wherever he thought he needed to go to improve his swimming.

One day he would settle down, and in his moment of weakness Rei could let go of his practicality and hope Rin would settle down with him, but for now his life would be training centers and hotel rooms and airports and buses, and it just seemed like the way it should be.

He just had to remember, this time, that he has somewhere to come home to.]

But you know, as long as I'm still living here, you can consider this room yours, too.

[He opens his eyes again, then blushes a bit, looking away.]

Or... was that too cheesy to say?

[Taken off guard for all of a second, Rin has to make an effort not to downright laugh at the suggestion, lips pressed into a thin line. It's not that the idea is ridiculous, and he's honestly touched that he's so openly been given a second home, but between that and Rei's Very Formal love confession from earlier, it really did seem like he was pushing for marriage. But Rin knows it's wishful thinking.]

Very. [Said in response to Rei's question, but whatever negative connotations that may have are hopefully washed away by the gentle press of Rin's lips to his, one that speaks of love much better than his words ever could.] But very sweet, too. I definitely appreciate it.

[Rubbing the tip of their noses in an all too affectionate gesture, Rin resumes his idle petting and pampering, hand running down the length of Rei's arms until his hand is within reach, fingers intertwined. Cheesy or not, Rin knows the offer is genuine, honest and open-hearted like Rei himself-- and all the more meaningful, knowing how hard it must have been for him to overcome his inhibitions and say that. A precious gift among the early Christmas parade this day has been.]

I mean, I know I'm flighty and all, and that's okay. It's what I have to do to keep improving, and I think it's fun to try and adapt to so many new places and people, anyway.

[He pauses for a chuckle, bringing Rei's hand to his mouth. He doesn't kiss him, but just holds him there instead, letting his lips brush against knuckles as he speaks.]

But it's good to have a home, too. So thank you for that.

[Thank you for being my home.]

[Rei blushes more and hides his face in the crook of Rin's neck. He knows Rin isn't making fun of him or anything, he just feels a little silly now. That's not even a literal promise (his parents like Rin, but wouldn't be in favor of him moving in permanently), just another instance of his words getting away from his sense.]

You're welcome.

[He takes a slow breath, brings his face away again.]

Maybe you should talk for awhile. Before I say something really sappy.

[He's still not thinking marriage like Rin is, but he's sure he can come up with something else embarrassing.]

Not that I don't mean it, I mean. Of course I mean it. I'm just not used to this yet, this is the first time I've... been in love.

[At least he hasn't said anything about theories yet.]

Yeah, well. That's one place where we're evenly matched, then.

[It's a reference to their levels of skill in swimming, a minor taunt said in jest, just to add spice to an otherwise tender moment. He wants to help Rei along with his newly found inclination for sap, yes, but also to make that truth perfectly clear; romantic though he may be, and regardless of how many silly crushes and odd attachments he has nurtured in the past, this is, without a shadow of doubt, the first time Rin has felt so deeply for someone, utter and completely smitten.]

Besides, I don't really mind it if you say sappy things. [He figures this is not so much an issue of how much that would please Rin, but rather how much it would embarrass Rei; still, a little bit of encouragement doesn't hurt, and it's encouragement he gives in the shape of nose kisses and hair petting, too.] C'mon, you're really cute like that! And it's not like I have the moral high ground to talk about it, anyway.

[He sighs, and it's quickly followed by a giggle. A memory has come to mind.]

Hah, if you'd been there to see some of the stuff I'd say when I was younger... I was a weird kid.

[Rin is being too kind on himself; this is not something he's left in the past.]

[The encouragement does help him, and he smiles despite his embarrassment. Reaching a hand up, he cards a hand through Rin's hair, encouragement of his own - mostly encouragement to keep touching him. He likes it, okay?]

That's when you came up with the idea to swim in a pool full of cherry blossoms, isn't it?

[He grins fondly, thinking of the day they'd filled their own pool full of cherry blossoms - even if they hadn't gotten to swim in it, it was still a wonderful moment.]

I've heard some of the stories. [He kisses Rin, more encouragement.] Maybe you could tell me more.

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